“Had I the heavens’ embroidered cloths,
Enwrought with golden and silver light,
The blue and the dim and the dark cloths
Of night and light and the half-light,
I would spread the cloths under your feet:
But I, being poor, have only my dreams;
I have spread my dreams under your feet;
Tread softly because you tread on my dreams.”—Yeats
It is rather nice to walk around in the empty night. I can still smell summer in the night air, for summer is struggling to stay. I just walked around the circle of apartment buildings a few times before lying on a bench singing along to Philip Glass, quietly so no one could hear.
There was something very nostalgic to it. I miss a certain part of my life, or a certain part of myself that has slowly diminished since college. It’s something I wish to set back into, bring out, click in. For I believe it is something in me that truly made me that happy person that I can’t help but feel I’m losing.
I need to remember that even though my life is changing, drastically, and fast, that I am still me. Sometimes ‘me’ is easy to lose. So much of myself is changing and growing that sometimes I feel I can’t keep up. I don’t want to lose sense of myself, the parts that are so significant it will always be a part of who I am. I don’t ever want to forget those aspects of life. I want to always feel the way certain things make me feel.
I don’t know if anyone can really understand this but me. That’s ok.
I just woke up and have the tv turned on before I start doing some schoolwork and a mini trailer for the new terminator movie came on. The only words spoken were “you are the resistance”, and I started wondering… muse?
Please tell me that their album title came from thought and planned preperation and goes in line with their actual music on the new album! I know it’s just two easy words to hear together and I’m looking into things. But this is MUSE, nothign is overlooked.
It’s about 11.30 pm, I could go to bed and fall asleep quite easily I think, but for some reason I’m just not quite ready to go to bed. The problem is I have nothing to do! Well, nothing I want to do. I have to clean my room (it’s in dire need), and I have a lot of schoolwork that needs to get done. I also have loads of novels I want to read and artsy or crafty things I would like to create.
Night time seems like a peacefull perfect time for all of those things, but I just… Feel too lazy to do any of them! So now I’m stuck in this “not-wanting-to-go-to-bed-but-too-lazy-to-do-anything-else” thing!
I don’t want to watching anything, I did plenty of that throughout the day. I spent hours on schoolwork earlier, and I don’t know where to start on my room. I don’t really think I have the ability for creative/crafty/artsy things, and I don’t have that many materials.
I can’t call anyone to just talk, everyone I know is probably in bed, and for some reason I have become one of those people who doesn’t talk to others on the phone. Not intentionally, I have nothing against it, I quite like it really…
And so here I am, telling everyone about my minute issue about nothing.
It really is peaceful at night, especially in this springy summer season.
I was just browsing around on tumblr and the interweb and came across eyebrow threading. At first I had no idea what it was about so I looked into. I think I would like to try it, my eyebrows so easily get out of control and I think it would be nice to try something new.
I know this isn’t the most exciting post but it’s what I was thinking about.
Well it has been quite a long time since I have posted anything, I guess I just didn’t feel like I had much to say.
My junior year at MSU is over (woo!), my grades were good even though not as good as I had wanted (or expected in one class). Now I am on to summer classes! I am taking 6 total (18 beautiful credits). Some people say summer classes are easy and fun, others say they are a lot of work and stressful. I have only had one week of my first three classes and so far I’m enjoying it. It’s all I’m doing this summer so technically I have the time, and they don’t seem too hard (yet).
Before summer classes though, I went to England (love it there) to visit James. He had moved to a new area of the lovely country because of his job, so I got to explore a whole new region! Royal Leamington Spa was a beautiful, classy, unique, big town/small city as well as a very green (a huge parks and lots of trees and a great river). It was a wonderful place and I had a great time, maybe I’ll post a few pictures!
Today was memorial day and me and my closest friends had a BBQ, us girls tried our hardest and for the first time ever we grilled some ribs! Also we made hamburgers, sausage, corn, salad, fruit, and chips. It was a big meal, who’s up for dessert?